Thing are changing

Wow....since graduating high school(hallaujah!!!!!!!!!!!!)a lot of things have changed. I'm now working full time--leading to no social life;(, changed churches from conservative presbyterian to non-denominational, and am now in the process of moving out.
As you've seen from my previous post, family life hasn't been that great. As much as I wrote down, there is still much more I could tell. A person can read about how horrible another persons life is, but can never fully comprehend how living that life feels. All the nitty gritty details can get into the open wounds and things that wouldn't necessarily irk someone can turn into the worst nightmares. I have many good friends that know the whole story of my life, how bad things truly are. But with all due respect to them as they are my greatest friends, they will never know how it feels to live the life I have been. They will never know how much my emotions have been tossed around, how mothers can do things to their kids and then blame it on something/someone else. And I myself could never fully understand how yet another persons life has been wrecked even with all my experience. The point is, things change and sometimes the people who are in the middle of the change can feel so alone even if someone knows everything.
Moving out is something I've literally always known I'd do. I'm talking about moving out before I was expected too. People move out for all different reasons, they all move out of their parents house eventually. But I've been planning this for years, I've been making the decisions for three months. Everything has been set for about a month now but it doesn't get easier. Telling your parents your leaving is never easy, no matter how much you hate them. It is ingrained in all of us to respect our parents and one doesn't give that up easily.
I know that this Thursday I'm moving out. Period. Nothing will change my mind on that. It's happening, but it won't be fun or easy. Now lets see how God gets me through that.